A Letter to My Son & Daughter

Dear Kids,

Every night I sneak into your beds and steal a moment, just watching over you, but tonight is extra special - we celebrated Mother’s Day today. I couldn’t be more honored to be your Mother, both of you so sweet and kind. Every night I sneak in and think about our memorable moments through out the day, whether it’s how enthusiastic you are about telling me what happened in school; or you Esme - how you learned to show me your teeth today. I am amazed and scared every, single day at how quickly you both are growing. I know I will blink one more time and you will be even bigger.

How did it happen so fast?

Everyday I take great pride in teaching you both how to be kind, sweet individuals and I know you both will prosper in life. But I also wish I could keep you in a bubble, safe from the cruel world we live in because I know one day you will have to fly. You both are so perfect, lying so swell might burst my heart. Since the day you were born, Max I have wore my heart on my sleeve and that doubled the day you were born, Esme. It was only a second ago I carried you in my womb and now you both are so grown.

Everyone warned me how quickly it goes, but they didn’t prepare me.

I am too often caught up in the craziness, the messy kitchen, the dirty laundry, making healthy meals and I always feel I can’t catch up but that’s only because I don’t want to miss a second with you, my babies but I do. As I stare at you under the blankets I wonder how you have gotten so big in such a short period of time. I can’t wait for all the new things to come, but I am also so freakin’ scared. I know I will blink again and you both will be off to college. So I don’t think. Tonight, I just bask in this beautiful sight of you both. I totally understand now why an old lady would sneak into her son’s room at night and rock him. 

“I love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.”

—Robert N. Munsch

As long as I’m living I will protect you.

As long as I’m living I will guide you.

As long as I’m living I will cherish all the beautiful and not so beautiful moments. 

I have been raised by raising you and I am so grateful for you, my beautiful babies. 

Please stop growing, please. 

Motherhood is constant worrying and constant happiness.

Happy Mother’s Day to you; to all the Moms, Grandmas, Aunties, Sisters, Friends and never forget we have the toughest job in this world.

Love Always,

Your Best Girlfriend,

Alessa